MIXED FEELINGS!!!!
Ok, So I have 1 month left to college. It has been three years sense I have started on my jurney at Taylor College, and let me assure you there have been up's and down's and yet through and through it has been an amazing experiance and totally worth it. And it is pretty neet for me to think that at my age I could know God's Call on my life. It is funny cuase usually by this time of the year I am ready to be done placement, and done school, and all that stuff, and I have never been really attatched to my previous placements, however this year, I am SO attatched to everyone at my placement. Even in Res, this year has been by far the best of the three years (no offence to the other years) So I have been trying really hard not to think about leaving. leaving placement, leaving res, leaving my fellow students who has traveled on this journey with me for either 2 or 3 years. The last three years has trained me to a point where I am ready to go. I am ready to enter into full time ministry and I am excited about where God is calling me, even if it means giving things up, and yet at the same time, when I think about leaving, I get so overwhelmed with emotion. My classmates, roomates, good friends, and even my placement has totally become a family to and for me! And to think of leaving them is one I can't stand to think about! I feel like when I leave my heart will brake in many different peices and one peice will stay with all those who have my heart. I know it is normal to be going through this, my intention in wrighting this was to see if wrighting it out would help me clear my head and try to make sense of just how I am feeling so I can deal with it, and end this year strong!
Ok, So I have 1 month left to college. It has been three years sense I have started on my jurney at Taylor College, and let me assure you there have been up's and down's and yet through and through it has been an amazing experiance and totally worth it. And it is pretty neet for me to think that at my age I could know God's Call on my life. It is funny cuase usually by this time of the year I am ready to be done placement, and done school, and all that stuff, and I have never been really attatched to my previous placements, however this year, I am SO attatched to everyone at my placement. Even in Res, this year has been by far the best of the three years (no offence to the other years) So I have been trying really hard not to think about leaving. leaving placement, leaving res, leaving my fellow students who has traveled on this journey with me for either 2 or 3 years. The last three years has trained me to a point where I am ready to go. I am ready to enter into full time ministry and I am excited about where God is calling me, even if it means giving things up, and yet at the same time, when I think about leaving, I get so overwhelmed with emotion. My classmates, roomates, good friends, and even my placement has totally become a family to and for me! And to think of leaving them is one I can't stand to think about! I feel like when I leave my heart will brake in many different peices and one peice will stay with all those who have my heart. I know it is normal to be going through this, my intention in wrighting this was to see if wrighting it out would help me clear my head and try to make sense of just how I am feeling so I can deal with it, and end this year strong!
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