Driving School

Today I started my course with young drivers. I am not completly sure that it has even fully sunk in less then a month I have made large steps in getting my licence. I never really saw my self as a driver before. When I lived in Newfoundland, the town I lived in or most I visted, I could walk where ever I needed, so I never really had much of an intrest. And always felt like I did not have the ability to drive. When I got accepted to Taylor college I knew I would soon have to get my licence, finally this past May, I got my permit, and I kinda got excited about driving, but then I could never get out when I was home, and I was tired of not doing anything about it, so as a result, I am now in drving school in Saint John, and because I have had my drivers permit for more then four months, if I try really hard I can have my licence at the end of febuary. It is crazy, and a little scary, but good! I actually enjoyed the classroom today more then I thought I would, he showed us a few neet tricks to try to explain things so we could understand, and those are the things I will remember. I told him I have hardly driven before, and had a hard time steering, AKA Ireally can't drive, and he said no problem, thats what they are there for, and they are use to it! Anyway I will keep you all updated on how it is all going. I still say stay off the sidewalks for the first while after I get to go on the road! LOL! And as Christian has said many times tonight...Jesus Take The Wheel!

What is Worship?

Worship is not just music. While music is a style or part of worship, it is not the only part. Worship is a lifestyle. If wporship was just music then those who were not musical could not worship. I went to a conference this weekend, and that’s one of the things that were spoken on. And then, over the next couple of days, we experienced many different forms of worship. A lot of was done in silence, or at least it felt that way! ON the first night we were divided up into three groups, one would read Psalms one would offer God thanksgiving, and I think the other one was surrender, (maybe really don’t remember) and then we would switch so we got to do all three. And when it came time to have communion we were asked to reflect on it and only take it when we were ready. We were shown a way to really reflect on scripture, well one way anyway because there are different ways. Um, we also had a creative session, where you could create something, out of different things, you could mould things from play-doe, you could paint, people could play music if they wanted, or you could Wright, so all different things to do. We also had a talk about community, kind of like finding God through others (sorry gray I remember the talk but not the name of the session) and then the last was worship with or through music. By the end of the weekend I did appreciate it all, I really missed the music, but knew it was good for me. I did have a difficult time with it, but it was because as God was speaking to me, I felt convicted of different things, which while it is good, because it is then that God and I can change things, it was also crappy while I was going through it. With all that being said I still feel my favorite way to worship is with music!

My Nan!
Ok guys, I have not been giving updates on my nan, and it is time I do so, so here it goes. One of my Joys over Christmas was getting to see my nan, and I was so glad that despite everything she went through, she still looks like nan!

She finally had her surgy in the early part of December, and they did not even have to cut her open, they were able to do the whole thing Microscopically. Good right? well yah it looked that way at first, but then she got high fevers, and the suspected another infection :( But it was not, well kinda, turns out she caught Pnemonia. She finally got out of the hospital, a little longer then we exspected, but she got out.

Then my parents brought her to Gander when they came to pick me up, she went there cause my aunt wanted her to spend Christmas there. And two things happened while she was out there. The first was she caught a cold, which she had for the rest of the time I was home. Second, and sorry for the gross details, but second was she thinks there was a complacation in the surgry, and she thnks they some how went two far and they got her bowals in a knot of some sort, which gives her bad cramps. It has turned her off from food, and she has lost 20 to 30 pounds sence the infection.

I have also noticed she is more confused and agravated as well. The confusion could possibly come from the fact that she is just getting older. as for the agravation I can understand it, but I can also see my family's view. they treat her like she is going to brake at any minnute, so she has no independance and freedom anymore which she is use to having, I can only imagine how frusterating that must be! But at the same time, I can see why my family does it, it is cause she is still not 100% and they want her to be careful.

Two days before I left she went for bloodwork so we are now waiting to see what that has to say! Then a few days ago, she went home, to her own home for the first time in almost four months. thanks to all of you for your prayers during these past few months for my nan and my family during this difficult time!

My Chrsitmas!

Hey all you bloggers, sorry I have not updated my blog in a long time, I will try to better at keeping it updated this term . I have decided to blog about my Christmas Brake, becuase I know I was concerned about it, and alot of people had been praying for me, so it is only right that I let you all know how it went.

FIRST I have to say, THANK YOU SO MUCH For Praying, becuase Prayer is amazing and awsome and works. I was really concerned about drinking while I was home, I don't have a problem with having the occasional drink, nor do I have a problem if other Christians drink, I mean the bible tells us not to get DRUNK, anyway, it has something I have struggeled with for a long time. Thats becasue there were many many times when I would go to have a drink, and not stoped at one, not that I would get drunk, but it was still just a little two much, and it seemed that when I was around my family it was harder. This term I realized that one of my biggist fears is that I can't stop after one drink, and that one day may fall into the same trap as some of my exstended family. It was hard for me to face it, I knew It would most likely never happen, but it was a fear none the less. Every time I would have a drink with my family, or the times I would really want to have a drink, I had to ask my self why I was doing it. So with this revelation of how I was thinking and feeling, I KNEW I could not drink when I went home, for my own health. So I got prayer, alot of prayer, and I prayed alot. When I got home I noticed that the amount my family was drinking seemed to have decressed, which was such a joy, AND my family seemed more supportive of me not drinking which was so great, and they bought me juice to drink while the rest of my family were having other beverages. So during my intire time home i had one drink, that was when we were all out at a resturant for supper.

The other thing that happened during Christmas is there was healing, but not with who I would have thought. there was healing between me and my mom. I can't really explain it, but it was awsome, cause there was a deeper understanding between us, I always felt she never understood me or she didn't believe me, but I found out she did understand me, and i finally started to see her side of things. I realised that I was not the only one hurt.

If I had to sit here and wright everything that happened over my Christmas brake the blog would be way to long to read, so I will end it now. Once again thanks for your prayers, they really made a differance.