Elisha and his heart for the nation!

This week, while at kens, I was getting really slack on doing my charecter study, ok, so i was lucky if i remembered to do my own personal devotion let alone my charecter study. Anyway, by thursday I was starting to freak out a little, so as I was doing my day of silance I started reading a little but nothing was comming! so then on friday morning both rachel and I woke up supper early, and once Rachel left the cabin and I realised I wasn't getting back to sleep, I open the curtins, grabed my flashlight, for extra light, and start reading 2 Kings to work on my charecter study! at first i couldn't see anything, but then, I read a passage, and it is like it jumped out of the page, i found this charecteristic, but not only was it a charecteristic of Elisha, it showed the charecter of God, and it made my heart leap and sink all at the same time! It should that He had a real heart for the nations. it made my heart leap cause it was awsome to see, but also made my heart sink cause it was almost like i could see this grown man weeping and it touched me, pluse It made me LONG for a heart for the nations! I never had an intrest, well, other then africa, but this summer i have this desire to have a heart for the nations and i feel that God is giving me desire, and i jut ned to conrinuw to seek him!

Janets Good Bye dinner

Today, after being out in the woods at Ken's all week, we came back to Janets good bye dinner! For those of you who don't know Janet she has been an administrater and teacher at the college for years now! And she is moving on at the end of this month!

though there were times I was so frusterated with Janet, none of those memories seem to stick, thank God, What I do remember are the times she went out of her way to help others! She did so many behind the scene things at and for the college that we will miss her for that alone! But I really thank God for Janet! She really knew how to stick up for you! Actually Janet is one of the main reasons I am back for my third year, she stuck up for me, prepard me well, and encouraged me to Fight Back, I use those words only because I lack better words, But Janet was an amazing women and will be missed around the college!

My Prayer for Janet is this: God will you lead and guide Janet in these next few weeks and months ahead. May she always rely on you to be her source of strenth and peace. I pray that you would continue to provide people for her as she and david are miles away from home. thank you for her obediance for hearing your voice and fallowing you even when it ment moving far away! In the name of you Son, Jesus Christ, Amen!

Week at Kens, Part two: A day of Silent retreet!

Have you ever spent hours in silance? well this week I did! Our task on thursday, because of the weather, was to do this retreet which ken gave us the outline for! It is you start with a prayer of confession and invatation, then move into thirty minnutes of silant listening in which you think of a phrase that draws you near to God, and then you read and reread a short passage of scripture, then you medatate on what you read, then you pray as God leads, then you jurnal, then you have some recreation and some reflective reading, and then you rest, and then you repeat the process, so each cycle is spose to take you 4 to 4 and a 1/2 hours! And you are spose to do this on your own! So the morning was brutal! It was so hard to stay quite, and try to hear from God! I usually need worship to enter in to my time with God! However then we came together for lunch and we discused the morning! then after a brake we were sent out to do the whole thing over again! And the second time around it was Awsome and amazing! I was so relaxed in God's presence that I almost fell asleep! :D It was great! when we discused it at first Ken made us feel like we were the only group to strugle with this, however after we returned from the second time he told us that we had a very commen reaction to what others had before us! Anyway it was neet and I would encourage people to take some time and retreet, be quite before the LORD! Peace out, Take Care and God bless!

Week at Kens--> Part one: Power tools!
We just got back from a week at Ken's place out at his resort in St Martins! If anyone wants to check it out the website is www.inthestilness.ca ! It was a great week, and we got to do alot of service projects for them! While the guys on the team help shingle a roof, dig a trench, and help cut paths, the girls got to work mostly inside and got to use POWER TOOLS! :D:D:D I loved it! I learned to use a nail gun, which I enjoyed alot better once I didn't have to stand on a stool to use! And I got to use the saw, the table say more specificly, which I LOVED!!!!! We had an amazing teacher who had lots of patiance, and if she left us alone things seemed to go down hill! :P but in all honesty it was fun! I learnt that every girl can have there moment! I learnt that using tools gives you a sence of power, and I learnt that it is always good for girls to have there own set of tools around, for those, just incase momenets! More then that though, once you get past the power rush, and remember the real reason your there, to lend a helping hand, and serve others, you learn humility and have such a sence of God's blessing and glory being poured out! It was awsome! Thanks God! Thanks Ken and Fay, May God bless you in everything you do!

We did have fun to though! Thanks to fay they girls went to grifend pond and with fays encouragement rachel and I went swimming, it was so much fun and so random! Thanks Fay for all your encouragement and for what a blessing you have been, and everything you taught us, and I don't just mean how to use the tools!

Ministry opertunity at Mamorial Unaversity back home in St. John's NL!

Ok, so a couple of weeks ago now a good friend of mine called me all exsited and telling me about this plan to start a new ministry in conjunction with an anglican church witch is in close proxsimity with the unaversity! There are so many parts to what they desire to do that I could not wright about them all, but it seemed like a good idea! And they had to take it to a joint committee to vote on it to see if they would provide the funds for this ministry, if it passes there it goes on to the three bishops in Newfoundland! After the first meeting with the joint commitie things looked iffy! So I talked to her that night, and we discused the meeting, the highs and lows, tried to rationalise things, ultimatly remembering that God was in control, and also knwoing that if this was God's will two things would happan: a.) It would happen regardless, if it is God's will nothing will stop it. b.) if it was God's will the devil would not be happy and he would try to attack from what ever angle he could! Also remembering that they might just be the seed planters (which personally I would hate to see cause it is time for the harvest!) So all we could do was leave it in God's hands!

Well just a couple of dys ago I got an e-mail from my friend, saying they have been approved and it has gone on to the three bishops and thier archbishops! So PRAY PRAY PRAY! Phase one is over, but the bishops are really big in this process! Keep PRAYING!!!!!!! The time of the harvest is NOW! The seeds have been planted for a while now, and now it is time to reep what others have sown!!!!!

Love Fredricton/TEC reuion!

All I have to say about it, was it was amazing!!!!

Being involved with Love fredricton was great because it took me out of my comfort zone, but in a good way! Judith and I went to the end of the street at the cross walk and handed out choclette, and it caused me to actually start conversations with people and talking to people I don't know, even if it was just to offer them free choclette. Some people looked at us as if we were crazy, while others wondered why, and still others, it brought tears to there eyes to be reminded of God's love, and it was cool to see peoples reactions. but more then that, it was such an amazing feeling to show just a bit of the love that I feel inside, and let it poor out by doing the simplist physical act. my prayer, as well as the people who organised love Saint John, is that it would not just be a one day event but that people would continuly show people that God loves them, one of the ways to do that, is doing random acts of kindness! (To think I had doubts and seriously considered not going)

As for the TEC celabration, it was also great! Not only did I have a great time worshiping God and feeling refreshed, it gave me a wonderful opertunity to meet people outside of the college from around this area. Which is big but awsome for me! Cause as much as I love the college and love the people, sometimes I feel on the outs or like I am going to explode, cause I don't know anybody outside of the college, and then when I do go out with people I always feel like I am the third wheel or that there only asking me cause they feel sorry for me (maybe I am paranoid, but still thats the way my brain works; and God is working on that) So yah TEC is allowing me to meet people outside of the college! YAY!

Anyway, I am once again signing off, (got to go back to work) :) Peace out, Take Care and God Bless, Susan!

Am I an Elijah?

So all this week I have been readinbg about Elijah, and as I read I got more and more stirred from what I was reading! WORDS HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH POWER!!!! The words God gives Elijah to speak have so much power!!!!! They have so much power that as soon as Elijah says "As the LORD the God of Israel, lives, whom I serve, there will be neither dew nor rain in the next few years except at my word." And that happened! THREE years they went with no rain, how powerful is that!! That because God gave those words for Elijah to speak and he was obbediant! Another example of this same thing is when Elijah was crying out to God to bring life back into the widows son, three times he laid on the boy and cryed out to God and life was restored to the boy. So words have power people!

Second: is kinda two things in one! In the first few chapters I lernt that Elijah was very obediant. There did not seem to be any questioning or doubting, He just did exsactly what God wanted Him to do! And then in the Next chapter I read how Elijah was afraid for his Life and he runs! And when I read this I laughed cause all my life when things got tuff I would either run or want to run, and if I wanted to run but didn't there was a lot of resistance! So I just wanted to stop running and become more like what Elijah was like in the first few chapters. so obediant that if God asks me to do something I will just do it without questoning or doubting! Just do it!

Finally: When the rest of the people were praying over me, Reed had this picture of me and God was giving me words to speak and I was bighting my tounge and holding back! And so as soon as I herd it I laughed!!! Because over the past year God has given me words and even sence I have gotten words to speak and I have just kept my mouth shut, or if I do speak them there is a lot of coaxing. So yah then they prayed that God would give me the boldness and that I would not be afraid and I would speak them out!!!!

Anyway I have to get back to work, also known as working on crafts! :P Take Care and God Bless, Susan!

Preparing for Battle

So this morning in my own personal time with God I was reading 2 Timothy and God jsut totally answered my prayer! Sence I have been back at work I have been feeling like all the work God did in me last year, has some how went away, I mean I know it never really, but when I went home I crawled back into my shell and never came out, and now I am here, and it is like I lost my vocie, everytime I go to pray fear consumes me to speak out loud, and it was really frusterating me! So when I was reading this morning I read this 2Tim 1: 6-10 "For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give you the spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power of love of self-discipline. So do not be ashamed to testify about our LORD, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holy life---not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time, but it has now been revealed through the apperearing of our saviour, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel. " This was so special to me, cause I realised that God has not given me that fear, and I KNOW one of the things that was broken off of me in TEC was that spirit of fear, and to realise that God has given me the spirit of power, and love, and self control and I should not be afraid to use my voice to bring glory to God's kingdom!

Then, not even an hour latter we started our day off by doing group devotion, and Reed (our teacher) brings us 1 John 2: 1-17 and we all had to share something that stood out to us, and his like totaly ligned up with what I read and gave me things I needed to deal with. Here is bits of what it said! 1John2:13;14 "I wright to you young men, because you have overcome the evil one" "I wright you, young men, because you are strong and the word of God lives in you, and you have overcome the evil one." we have over come the evil one! We are worries! We are out on the battle feild! But before we can overcome the evil one in the bigger picture or in spiritual relam, we first need to overcome the evil one in our own hearts!!!!! Then we can take ground in the spirtual relam! But we also need to remember always: that We can not do anything on our own, we NEED God; God is the one doing the work in us and trough us! So who am I to lose my voice! Who am I to doubt or question what the God Lord is doing through me! Greater is he that is me, then he who is in the world!

My Prayer: That God would clence me, that he would give me clean hands and pure heart, and that he would do this in the whole team we are working in this summer! and that He would give Me and us that spirit of boldness and power and Love and self deciple more then ever before! God make us more aware of how awsome you are! Keep preparing us for the battle feild. May we NEVER lose sight of our first love, may we never lose sight of the fact the you, God, are doing the work!!!! NOT US! Anyway, I think that is enough for now! Take Care and Be Blessed, Peace Out, Susan!

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